I’m Still Here (2010)

I’m Still Here (2010) is a mockumentary-style film directed by Casey Affleck, following the supposed downward spiral of actor Joaquin Phoenix as he abandons his Hollywood career to pursue a new life as a hip-hop artist. Blurring the line between fiction and reality, the film presents itself as a behind-the-scenes documentary chronicling Phoenix’s erratic behavior, personal struggles, and professional downfall, leaving audiences questioning whether his transformation is genuine or an elaborate performance piece.
The film begins in 2008 when Phoenix, at the height of his acting career, announces his retirement from Hollywood to focus on a rap career. This shocking decision baffles fans and colleagues alike, including his longtime friend Casey Affleck, who takes on the role of documentarian. As Phoenix immerses himself in the music world, his appearance drastically changes—he gains weight, grows a scruffy beard, and adopts a disheveled look, signaling his apparent detachment from mainstream celebrity culture.
Throughout the film, Phoenix exhibits bizarre and often self-destructive behavior, alienating friends, agents, and industry professionals. His live performances are chaotic, filled with unintelligible lyrics and awkward stage presence, earning ridicule rather than respect. He seeks guidance from rap producer Sean “Diddy” Combs, whose bemused reaction further underscores the absurdity of Phoenix’s musical ambitions.
As the narrative unfolds, Phoenix’s personal life also deteriorates. He lashes out at assistants, indulges in excessive drug use, and engages in bizarre antics, such as an infamous appearance on The Late Show with David Letterman, where he mumbles incoherently, confusing and amusing the audience. This moment becomes one of the film’s most talked-about events, reinforcing public speculation that Phoenix may have truly lost his grip on reality.
However, in the film’s final moments, Phoenix retreats to a secluded location, contemplating his existence and seemingly regretting the path he has taken. This introspective ending suggests a deeper commentary on fame, identity, and the pressures of Hollywood.
After the film’s release, Phoenix and Affleck revealed that I’m Still Here was an elaborate hoax, intended as a satirical critique of celebrity culture and media obsession. While some audiences praised its bold experimentation, others criticized it as self-indulgent and misleading. Regardless, I’m Still Here remains a fascinating, provocative work that challenges the boundaries between reality and performance, leaving a lasting impression on those who experience it.